Bitch session

Ok so ive been good right??? worked out hard....and now im getting obsessed again and I dont want to be that person. I want to be relaxed about my eating and enjoy working out but how can I do that when I cant lose any weight?!?! How can I be happy when I try so hard and cant seem to do anything right? Why cant I lose it. ive done it before and been way lighter and now I cant! I dont want to be scary skinny I want to be comfortable in my own skin.
I had a ceasar salad with mahi for lunch and I had some of my muffins for a snack. I feel like im walking on a tight rope and about to fall....arggg Not sure what im gong to have for dinner yet. Im thinking chicken and veggies.. Thanks for listening :)