The Beginning

OK, so this is my first blog and I guess ill just start with introducing myself. My name is Alexa, I'm married with a 6 year old son. Ive struggled with my body image most of my life but was able to deal with it pretty well and like most people looking back I really had no reason for it. I guess I just never really felt like I fit in. I'm 5'9" tall and have been this tall since middle school. Throughout High School I was around 125 - 135 lbs. Most people would think that was skinny for my height but I never really looked skinny, and I knoe this is true because even though ive gained 40+ lbs. ive only gained 3 pant sizes at the most. I was more of an athletic built and I guess me being an active person was the reason. Ive all ways done many different things like horseback riding, water skiing, riding dirt bikes and four wheelers, I was a swimmer, played softball, etc. so I pretty much kept right around that weight till I settled down with my husband and started a full time Career, I say career because all my jobs before that were stand up jobs so I kept moving all day. Once I began a desk job the weight started to slowly pack on. Its always been really hard for me to notice when I've started to gain weight because with my height and build its pretty well distributed all over. So here is the point where I say I gained most of the weight with my pregnancy right? wrong, I cant blame him for that. During my pregnancy I gained a total of about 10 lbs. after having lost 20 in the beginning. I was sick throughout my entire pregnancy so I tried really hard to eat healthy when I could actually eat. and after my sons birth I actually weight less than when I got pregnant.....how many people can say that right? lol. Anyway I guess I really started to pack it on after that because I could well eat and keep it down :) so Ive since struggled to lose weight and have succeeded only to have it come right back in full force. So here we are today and I am about 37-40 lbs overweight. I have been working out religiously and haven't dropped a lbs. Grrrrrr. Getting frustrated but I'm not giving up...and honestly I cant blame anything but myself in this. I haven't followed a strict diet and have tried to do this with mostly exercise.....But that all stops now! well not the exercise part but the diet, or lack there of. I am beginning a low carb diet consisting of eggs for breakfast, string cheese or some nuts for a snack, salad or leftovers for lunch and repeat the mid morning snack, Dinner will be chicken and veggies, steak and veggies etc. dessert will be a sugar free jello with whip cream. And a minimum of 64 oz. of water per day. the first few days are always the hardest so I need to prepare for this and have everything I need available which is why I will be starting on Mon. morning. I will be posting daily with a log of my eating and my exercising for the day and how I'm feeling. I need to succeed at this because I deserve it and I am a better person for my family and myself when I am healthy and feeling comfortable in my own skin. I hope that my struggle can help someone else succeed in their goals.